Jessica Simpson shares ‘unrecognizable’ photo as an alcoholic
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Jessica Simpson is celebrating four years of sobriety and opening up more than ever about her struggle with alcoholism.
The singer and fashion mogul marked the anniversary by posting an “unrecognizable” throwback photo of herself on social media.
Simpson is shown with a swollen face and red eyes, wearing a pink tracksuit, and staring introspectively off camera in the shot, which was taken on November 1, 2017.
Simpson wrote in her post that she knew “in this very moment” that it was time to stop drinking.
“This person in the early morning of 1 Nov, 2017 is an unrecognizable version of myself. I had so much self discovery to unlock and explore,” she captioned the make-up-free shot in which she looked to be sobbing.
“I knew in this very moment I would allow myself to take back my light, show victory over my internal battle of self respect, and brave this world with piercing clarity.”
“Personally, to do this I needed to stop drinking alcohol because it kept my mind and heart circling in the same direction and quite honestly I was exhausted. I wanted to feel the pain so I could carry it like a badge of honor.
“I wanted to live as a leader does and break cycles to advance forward – never looking back with regret and remorse over any choice I have made and would make for the rest of my time here within this beautiful world.”
She can’t believe it’s been four years since she stopped drinking, according to the fashion designer.
“The real work that needed to be done in my life was to actually accept failure, pain, brokenness, and self sabotage,” she wrote. “The drinking wasn’t the issue. I was. I didn’t love myself. I didn’t respect my own power. Today I do.”
The singer also expressed her dissatisfaction with the “stigma” associated with “the word alcoholism or the label of an alcoholic.”
Abusing alcohol was a sign of a deeper problem for her, she claimed, which was her inability to accept herself, flaws and all.
“The real work that needed to be done in my life was to actually accept failure, pain, brokenness, and self sabotage. The drinking wasn’t the issue. I was.” she wrote. “I didn’t love myself. I didn’t respect my own power. Today I do. I have made nice with the fears and I have accepted the parts of my life that are just sad.”
“Today I do. I have made nice with the fears and I have accepted the parts of my life that are just sad. I own my personal power with soulful courage. I am wildly honest and comfortably open. I am free.”
Simpson’s fight with alcoholism was previously chronicled in her 2020 memoir, Open Book.
She started drinking about 7 a.m. on Halloween morning in 2017, just before she and her husband, Eric Johnson, were scheduled to attend a school assembly for their daughter, Maxwell, she claimed. She was too inebriated to go trick-or-treating with her kids by the time nighttime arrived, and she missed her own Halloween party. She remained in solitude for the majority of the next day.
“I am ashamed to say that I don’t know who got them into their costumes that night,” she said. “I slept in, afraid to see them, afraid I had failed them. I hid until they left, then drank.”